Journalled on Saturday, 4th of February 2023 | Copacabana, Rio de Janeiro: 33 degrees, very hot and sunny.
Yasmin is with me, and I am worried about her and about money. The truth is, I’m concerned about everything right now.
I know it’s just a moment, but I’m freezing up about taking the next step. It is not just for me but for Yasmin, too. Leaping often involves taking many small steps, one at a time. Besides, what’s stopping me? I have nothing to lose.
No one really cares about me or my decisions, so I should do what I want and forget about the rest.
In my pursuit of success, I often set high expectations for myself. This stems from a deep-seated fear of failure. At present, I don’t have much in terms of material possessions, just the clothes on my back and a computer. I don’t own a house, flat, property, or car.
While there are various reasons for this, such as living in a foreign country, supporting my daughters, and having no family to help me, I still refuse to use them as excuses.
I am at a point where I need to take ownership of my circumstances and work toward my goals despite the challenges I face.
About our day, I made a list of tasks to do outside in the street. I called Yasmin to come with me, and we went around Copacabana doing all the tasks, ticking each one off as we went; it was so good. It was enjoyable to spend time together and do things on the street.
We took a break and sat outside one of the many coffee shops in Copacabana to chat, enjoy a drink, and have something to eat while watching the world go by. After spending three to four hours running errands, I felt a sense of accomplishment and satisfaction when I got home. It was an enjoyable and productive Saturday!
It is boiling, and it is just two weeks before carnival.
In bed by 10 p.m.
Thank you!
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Richard
